Justice

Week 19

JUSTICE

1. The quality of being just; fairness.
2. a. The principle of moral rightness; equity.         b. Conformity to moral rightness in action or attitude; righteousness. 
3. a. The upholding of what is just, especially fair treatment and due reward in accordance with honor, standards, or law.                                b. Law The administration and procedure of law.
4. Conformity to truth, fact, or sound reason

Is it me, or do pagans feel outraged more about injustices? The smallest slights against them and it's end of the world stuff, citing lack of honour etc etc.  Not just me? Good.. thought it was.  Is it because Playgans like to fantasise about the olde days of yore, of chivalry and the such? A lot of them do live in a fantasy world. So maybe it's only the natural progression of their life to be outraged about injustice to them. By outraged I mean talking a lot about (and by talk, I mean slag off to the nines) the wronger and not actually doing anything about it. 

When I started this particular blog 3 weeks ago, things were kicking off in the little world I occupy.  Maybe it was right to leave it until after it had all settled to finish what I was blogging, or it could have been a very angry soap box session.  Ok, it WILL be a soapbox but now with some more perspective and calm thrown in lol.

People come and go in our Warband. They blow in with big intentions, even bigger declarations of respect, get branded with tattoos, tabbards, the whole nine yards and then blow out again with even bigger noise on their way out.  Usually with their noses in the proverbial slings citing some bullshit reason why they now hate us.  Having been around in the Warband for the last decade, I've seen them come and go.  Those who stick around, work quietly in the background, not looking for any kind of glory and they are ALWAYS there when they are needed most.  Quality, not quantity as they say.

Now the last lot that just left were just unbelievable. 'We don't do gossip' and yet.. that's right, in spite (spite being the operative word!) of their claims of wanting to leave quietly, they are still kicking off about us being big meanies.  Now, I wouldn't mind but they won't even say what it is about! How can you make things right, when they ALL won't discuss it? How can you amend any wrongs if they won't tell you what you've done wrong? How can you move forward, without knowing what's holding you back?  Now as far as I'm concerned, I tried for ages to mediate with them and got the biggest loads of wankybollox you've ever read... big long posts that contained absolutely NO explanations to why they were pissed off.  Hail and farewell, says I....  and then when we didn't plaster it all over social media and slag them off, guess what? Yes, that's right, they started and they told enough people of their 'hurt' that others felt bad for them and then also started.  Shitstirring I believe it's called. So I posted up their own words and then some said 'aha' and realised they'd been lied to and some didn't.  Victim mentality at it's finest.  I have no patience with people who play the victim.

If it's not known by now, know it now... I keep all the messages, emails and screenshots of the shit I have sent to me.  I will quite happily post it up as proof that you are talking shit. I do not tell people who they can and cannot be friends with and I don't encourage others to unfriend others because of a fall out I've had. People can read both sides and make their own minds up.  I have quite a collection now of these screenshots and emails going back years.  I keep them because I need too.  I don't like having to argue with people I previously thought highly of.  But it seems I do indeed have a target on my back and you know what? This warrior will fight back, especially when I know I'm right. Sticking up for myself and my friends is Just. Anyway, as I've seen, they all come back eventually eating humble pie.  They are welcomed back every time but that doesn't mean I don't remember the poisons they poured in others ears. I watch. I wait. I hope they got it out of their systems and I don't have to add yet more screenshots to my folder.

So Justice.  The last word in our Oath we take under the Sword of Britain - Truth, Honour and Justice. They are words I live by.  I even had them included in my paint job on my bike. They are not words I will just discard like many others have done before.  You don't throw away an Oath like that because you don't like Arthur and the Warband anymore.   Those who can, never truly believed in the value of those words they swore to uphold.  You can throw away the friendships you made when you were declaring we were your family, your brother and sisters; you can turn your backs on those who loved you but the Universe is watching and you will be measured in Time for what you have done to others.  Is that karma? Nah, I think karma is something different but I can't exactly put my finger on why it's different... not yet anyway.

From my own personal experiences, I know that wanting Justice for wrongs levied against you and yours, can soon turn into holding on to those traumas and letting them consume you.  Some times you just have to ask the Universe to serve up it's own Justice and move on with your life.  Hindsight is a bitch!  I do hold on to these things, I do feel them deeply and I do take them personally.  Is that a character flaw on my part? No, I don't think so. I think it's a character flaw for those who take advantage of those with good natures who welcome them to their heaths and heart.  I know what personal trauma is, real nasty horrible stuff, and what these people are doing now, doesn't really register on my scale of giving a shit.  It's as simple as that.

I am nice right up to the point when they cross the line... and then they wish they hadn't.  No, not hexing or any of that. It's quite possible to go through life without threatening people with magic.  If you can't use your own Truths to fight your battles, then you shouldn't be commanding a damned thing, let alone magical intent. As Granny Weatherwax says, you might know how to do magic, but that doesn't mean you should.

Oh and before I go, I just remember this pearl of wisdom someone shared once.

When you point the finger of blame, three fingers point back to yourself. Think about it... even me lol

Glamour

Week 13

Glamour

Oxford Dictonary:
"Origin early 18th century (originally Scots in the sense 'enchantment, magic'): alteration of grammar. Although grammar itself was not used in this sense, the Latin word grammatica (from which it derives) was often used in the Middle Ages to mean 'scholarship, learning', including the occult practices popularly associated with learning."

Urban dictionary: "Disguises an object, also makes it temporarily assume the shape of its disguise."

Hmmm... not just a word to describe some bint with her bits out, but it has origins in magic and even the urban dictionary nails it. I'm not on about making yourself look glamorous or mucky pictures or models but the negative way that those who put a 'glamour' on, affects the world around us. Oh this is gonna be juicy and I bet you can all identify at least one person in your circles that does this.

The shit just doesn't stick to some people. Even when there's evidence testifying to things they've said, done and who they really are, people fail to 'see' this, ignore it, defend them and then turn on people who are enemies of this person. Why? They've got their glamour on. I'm not sure whether they do a spell, or it's some kind of projection or what but it's infuriating being the receiving end of their campaigns where everything they say about you is taken as the truth and everything you say to prove otherwise, is overlooked.  I've been on the pagan scene for a decade (ish) and this glamour crap has reared it's fetid head many times.

** I don't know what it is but I started this blog a month ago and it's been sitting at the back of my mind, unable to be completed. I've just had a lovely hot bath with oudles of bubbles and all this stuff is running amok in my head, so it's no bed for me... I have this one to finish and another two to write. Easy! Ok where was I........ **

I have just had a look through some old emails for inspiration and you know what? I hadn't realised how many YEARS I've been dealing with this bullshit. What is wrong with these people? Why can't they just get on with their thing and not create such disharmony in the world? Why do they have to poison people against those they currently hate? Why don't they put their energies into something constructive? Why don't they all just fuck off! I keep screenshots of all these things they write and I just read one where the 'victim' is whipping people up into a 'poor you' frenzy claiming that I and several others are going to do magic against them and to 'shields up' because it's the full moon that week and we'll be attacking her. Really??!! What world do you live in where you think I'd waste my energies and time working magic against you? That kind of mentality needs Sectioning... and yet, in spite of the endless screenshots, emails, text messages and evidence that proves mine and others innocence, this person just keeps being hailed as the 'victim' and how they are drawn to her like a magnet sucking in people. Like a big fat bullshit vacuum ....... and that's 'glamour'. And I bet that you're all nodding your heads saying 'yeah, that sounds like ...' - there's always someone doing it.  That screenshot/email is from FOUR years ago and the bitch is still banging on about it every opportunity.... I kid you not. Pathetic.

What can you do to protect yourself from it? It's easy to say not to rise to the bait but it's a bit difficult when these people know what buttons to push. When you're on the spiritual path, you open up and talk about personal things and these people take those words and then try and hurt you with them. There's a word for people like that, and it's a very rude one!  So be careful who you confide in, it's too easy to think you're in good company, feel comfortable and then confide your life story.  Not everyone is as they seem.

It's too easy to get angry, to want to hex to get them to stop... but that just lets them feed off your energy. It drains you. It consumes your world with what they said next. You get sucked into their bullshit vacuum... pull the plug. Keep it factual, don't get personal. Then let them get on with it. My mum always told me (and I never appreciated at the time) that people will bait you to get a rise out of you. If you don't bite back, they don't like it... and if they keep baiting and don't get the reaction they want, they are the ones that look stupid.

Remember: You don't have to justify yourself to anyone........ so don't!

That said, I often wish we lived in times where you could carry swords and double headed battle axes. I'd like to see them say that shit to my face then (none ever have had the balls to btw) ... but they didn't have keyboard warriors back then! And that is the point isn't it.... they are nothing but trolls, people with distorted egos, people who need others to feed off, people who live behind a keyboard spouting hate and sucking others into their bullshit vacuum. They are NOTHING... remember that. Pity them and if you're going to do any kind of magical working, light a candle and send them some LIGHT, because Goddess knows, they need it.