Justice

Week 19

JUSTICE

1. The quality of being just; fairness.
2. a. The principle of moral rightness; equity.         b. Conformity to moral rightness in action or attitude; righteousness. 
3. a. The upholding of what is just, especially fair treatment and due reward in accordance with honor, standards, or law.                                b. Law The administration and procedure of law.
4. Conformity to truth, fact, or sound reason

Is it me, or do pagans feel outraged more about injustices? The smallest slights against them and it's end of the world stuff, citing lack of honour etc etc.  Not just me? Good.. thought it was.  Is it because Playgans like to fantasise about the olde days of yore, of chivalry and the such? A lot of them do live in a fantasy world. So maybe it's only the natural progression of their life to be outraged about injustice to them. By outraged I mean talking a lot about (and by talk, I mean slag off to the nines) the wronger and not actually doing anything about it. 

When I started this particular blog 3 weeks ago, things were kicking off in the little world I occupy.  Maybe it was right to leave it until after it had all settled to finish what I was blogging, or it could have been a very angry soap box session.  Ok, it WILL be a soapbox but now with some more perspective and calm thrown in lol.

People come and go in our Warband. They blow in with big intentions, even bigger declarations of respect, get branded with tattoos, tabbards, the whole nine yards and then blow out again with even bigger noise on their way out.  Usually with their noses in the proverbial slings citing some bullshit reason why they now hate us.  Having been around in the Warband for the last decade, I've seen them come and go.  Those who stick around, work quietly in the background, not looking for any kind of glory and they are ALWAYS there when they are needed most.  Quality, not quantity as they say.

Now the last lot that just left were just unbelievable. 'We don't do gossip' and yet.. that's right, in spite (spite being the operative word!) of their claims of wanting to leave quietly, they are still kicking off about us being big meanies.  Now, I wouldn't mind but they won't even say what it is about! How can you make things right, when they ALL won't discuss it? How can you amend any wrongs if they won't tell you what you've done wrong? How can you move forward, without knowing what's holding you back?  Now as far as I'm concerned, I tried for ages to mediate with them and got the biggest loads of wankybollox you've ever read... big long posts that contained absolutely NO explanations to why they were pissed off.  Hail and farewell, says I....  and then when we didn't plaster it all over social media and slag them off, guess what? Yes, that's right, they started and they told enough people of their 'hurt' that others felt bad for them and then also started.  Shitstirring I believe it's called. So I posted up their own words and then some said 'aha' and realised they'd been lied to and some didn't.  Victim mentality at it's finest.  I have no patience with people who play the victim.

If it's not known by now, know it now... I keep all the messages, emails and screenshots of the shit I have sent to me.  I will quite happily post it up as proof that you are talking shit. I do not tell people who they can and cannot be friends with and I don't encourage others to unfriend others because of a fall out I've had. People can read both sides and make their own minds up.  I have quite a collection now of these screenshots and emails going back years.  I keep them because I need too.  I don't like having to argue with people I previously thought highly of.  But it seems I do indeed have a target on my back and you know what? This warrior will fight back, especially when I know I'm right. Sticking up for myself and my friends is Just. Anyway, as I've seen, they all come back eventually eating humble pie.  They are welcomed back every time but that doesn't mean I don't remember the poisons they poured in others ears. I watch. I wait. I hope they got it out of their systems and I don't have to add yet more screenshots to my folder.

So Justice.  The last word in our Oath we take under the Sword of Britain - Truth, Honour and Justice. They are words I live by.  I even had them included in my paint job on my bike. They are not words I will just discard like many others have done before.  You don't throw away an Oath like that because you don't like Arthur and the Warband anymore.   Those who can, never truly believed in the value of those words they swore to uphold.  You can throw away the friendships you made when you were declaring we were your family, your brother and sisters; you can turn your backs on those who loved you but the Universe is watching and you will be measured in Time for what you have done to others.  Is that karma? Nah, I think karma is something different but I can't exactly put my finger on why it's different... not yet anyway.

From my own personal experiences, I know that wanting Justice for wrongs levied against you and yours, can soon turn into holding on to those traumas and letting them consume you.  Some times you just have to ask the Universe to serve up it's own Justice and move on with your life.  Hindsight is a bitch!  I do hold on to these things, I do feel them deeply and I do take them personally.  Is that a character flaw on my part? No, I don't think so. I think it's a character flaw for those who take advantage of those with good natures who welcome them to their heaths and heart.  I know what personal trauma is, real nasty horrible stuff, and what these people are doing now, doesn't really register on my scale of giving a shit.  It's as simple as that.

I am nice right up to the point when they cross the line... and then they wish they hadn't.  No, not hexing or any of that. It's quite possible to go through life without threatening people with magic.  If you can't use your own Truths to fight your battles, then you shouldn't be commanding a damned thing, let alone magical intent. As Granny Weatherwax says, you might know how to do magic, but that doesn't mean you should.

Oh and before I go, I just remember this pearl of wisdom someone shared once.

When you point the finger of blame, three fingers point back to yourself. Think about it... even me lol

Hex

Week 15

I've done a few over the years but not since 2010 because I didn't need to.  I thought about it and it didn't warrant it.  Hexing isn't something you should just do.  It's something that you need to really think about before you decide what needs to be done.  This applies to whatever path you are on.

• why are you doing it? Really think about it. 
• what result do you want from the hex?
• how are you going to do the hex?
• which spirits/deities are you going to call to help you with the hex?
• is the hex really necessary? Have you REALLY thought about it? Can it not be solved by communicating to that person that they are being a wanker? 
• meditate on it.. ask for guidance, ask for inspiration, ask if it's the right thing to do.
• got the go ahead? Then go for it. If it feels right, it is right. 
• teach them a lesson.
• write the details in your book, take some pictures, keep a record. 
• don't broadcast it on social media! Don't threaten people on forums that you'll 'hex them til their eyes glow red' cos you sound like a twat, it's stupid and you can't do it! It's not Charmed ffs, grow up. 
• there is ALWAYS a price to pay. You cannot exert that much energy and not pay. If you don't know what you're doing - DON'T DO IT! Don't be messing about with this shit... and if you get it out of a book that has a red velvet cover or other fluffy book, then you're a bloody fool and deserve the backlash of your stupidity and ignorance.

How about this. Instead of doing a hex to harm that person who's upset you, how about doing a working, put it into words what that person has done and why you feel wronged. Then ask the Universe to sort them out as it sees fit.

Or teach them a lesson
Someone was being spiteful and hateful. Their lies were really doing harm. So I did a hex to reflect back to them what they were putting out. For them to be gagged by their own poisonous words, to choke on their own venom and when they had learnt the error of their ways, the hex would release them. It's using their own darkness against them.  Writing it down, exactly how they are wronging you and reflecting that behaviour back to them often is all that's needed.  Ask the Universe to help.... that's all a spell or prayer is really, putting it 'out there'.  There are no guarantees. Some people are impervious.

Three fold rule
Yeah, I don't hold with that one bit. Once upon a time, I was afraid, actually afraid to wish retribution on those who had really done me over in case it came back to me. What a load of bollox!  It's more of a guideline than a rule anyway... nothing wrong with not being a wanker to people, it's basic good manners really.  If you wrong people, you should expect it to return to you.  I'm not even Wiccan! It has become a pagan rule, rather than the Wiccan rede that it's supposed to represent. It's been twisted and corrupted by fluffy people who aren't even on that path.  Those people who take this 'rule' literally do themselves more harm than good, I speak from my own experience. Most of the time it's been misquoted and that's typical really because pagans put down Christians for doing the same, yet quite happily do the same with the three fold rule.  It's open to interpretation like all text.  It's part of the Wiccan Rede, if you're going to abide by the Rede, then it should be to ALL the Rede and not the last sentence... plus it has to be fairly irksome to actual Wiccans to have their words misquoted by fluffy people. The Wiccans I've met, have been initiated and trained and don't spout off.  Those who follow wicca, aren't Wiccans. Wiccans are those who have been initiated into a coven.  Or so I'm led to believe, it's not my area of expertise, so my apologies if I got it wrong or offended anyone - not my intent.

I'm not Wiccan, I don't know if this is the actual full rede but it says it is and there's so much on the www it's mad!

Back to hexing........
Everything I do, comes from within. The ones I have done in the past have been after I asked spirit for guidance. I sat and thought about it for a few days and then if it was right to do, I did a working. For me, it involves fire, fresh sage and rosemary on the fire, alcohol (usually mead), maybe a candle, the poppet I've made, maybe a sharp thing to focus with (hehehe) and my cat Booster - he just likes to sit on my lap when I have a fire. I write down what I want to achieve. I sit by the fire and relax my mind. I ask my guides to come close and to help me with doing what is right. I ask a deity to come close and to give me the go ahead. If I feel it's ok to proceed, I do.  Each time has been different. Each time there's been a different deity felt. It does use your energy and you may find you're tired for a couple of days or even feel ill.

You can also apply all of the above to working with poppets. They don't have to be for hexing, they can be used for healing work too.  When I visited the Witchcraft museum in Boscastle, they had recently uncovered a secret room of the late Cecil Williamson, full of poppets, curse/hex objects and many other wonderful things.  These were put on display in big glass cases and the artifacts are very old.  Hexing/cursing is an ancient thing.  In Roman baths they have found lead tablets with a prayer to curse a person, folded over and thrown in to the local God/ess there.  It's not a new thing. People went to a specialist to do these things. They'd pay them in some form and then leave them to it, happy in the knowledge that the man who stole their pig would be struck down with some horrible disease.  What can I say, people have always had the capacity to be petty vindictive dicks lol.  The picture below is of a curse tablet found in London. It reads:

"I curse Tretia Maria and her life and mind and memory and liver and lungs mixed up together, and her words, thoughts and memory; thus may she be unable to speak what things are concealed, nor be able."  (translation: British Museum) - nice!

Wiki article on Curse Tablets

If you are ever in Cornwall, make sure you visit the Witchcraft museum. It's a wonderful place and I highly recommend it. Read their guide.

If you recall in my blog Glamour, there was a person who was telling people I was going to hex her on the full moon.  I haven't because she's not worth my energy.  I haven't felt the need to do a working since 2010. And that's why I love Granny Weatherwax, just because you know how to do it, doesn't mean you have to. The tip is knowing when NOT to use magic.  Hexing isn't always the way to deal with a situation. Of course there's the added power of Headology... let them think you've done something. Let them twist themselves up thinking you're going to do something.  Not that I did, in that particular case, that was all her imagination. I was just as surprised to read I was going to do it as everyone else lol.

There are people who have done such heinous things to me, that I wouldn't want to tap into that hatred I have for them. That's a dark place I don't want to explore. Which is why I haven't seriously fucked them up... and I could but it would cost me more.

THERE IS ALWAYS A PRICE TO PAY.
Remember that...